Julian Lennon, the first son of John Lennon and his first wife, Cynthia Powell, had a complex and often painful relationship with his father, which significantly impacted his childhood and later life. Here are some key points about Julian's experiences and relationship with his father:

Absence During Childhood: John Lennon was frequently absent during Julian's early years, largely due to his commitments with the Beatles and his own personal issues. John's focus on his career and later on his own selfdiscovery journeys left little room for his responsibilities as a father.

Divorce of His Parents: Julian was only five years old when his parents divorced in 1968. The divorce was fueled in part by John's affair with Yoko Ono. After the divorce, John's involvement in Julian's life became even more sporadic. John and Yoko moved to the United States in 1971, which further strained his relationship with Julian, who remained in the UK with his mother.

Emotional Distance and Neglect: Julian has spoken about feeling abandoned and neglected by his father. He described John as being distant and at times harsh, noting that there was very little expression of love and support from him. This emotional neglect left Julian feeling insecure and unvalued.

Impact of John's Remarks: John Lennon made several public statements that Julian found hurtful. For instance, John famously remarked in an interview that Julian had come out of a "whiskey bottle on a Saturday night," which deeply affected Julian. Such remarks contributed to Julian feeling like he was an unplanned and unwanted child.

John's Death and Aftermath: John Lennon's murder in 1980 when Julian was just 17 years old complicated his feelings of loss and unresolved emotional issues with his father. The relationship never had a chance to mature or heal before John's sudden death.

Financial and Estate Issues: After John's death, much of his estate was left to Yoko Ono and their son Sean, with Julian receiving a smaller portion. This led to additional legal battles that Julian initiated to secure a fair share of his father's legacy, further complicating his emotional ties to his family.

Reflections in Music: Julian Lennon's own music career, which began in the 1980s, often reflected his complex feelings about his father and their relationship. His debut album, "Valotte," has tracks that hint at his attempts to come to terms with his past and the shadow of his father’s legacy.

Despite these challenges, Julian Lennon has worked to forge his own path, both in his music career and in his philanthropic efforts, often focusing on environmental and humanitarian issues. His journey reflects his efforts to understand and move beyond his difficult past with his father.